:: Fascinating, I know ::

:: Friday, February 14, 2003 ::

I could post a bitter rant about valentines day, but i think my health worker covered it in the paper. i also dont really have the energy. gotta rape stanford tomorrow. :)
:: kate 11:13 PM [+] ::
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Maybe it takes someone objective to tell you: you're better than that. you deserve more. and maybe i believe that.
:: kate 11:42 PM [+] ::
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Here is my stream of consciousness cause i was really bored:

Hatred much hatred. I wonder why that is, cause im afraid? I choose sides im weak, but im ok. Living in Channing House next year whoo hoo , excited anxious. ROomates, possibly sharing a room with someone again. ahhh, i get jealous sometimes. Im totally in love with Marissa and ashley itll be fun. I want art. Art excites me. I wish i was an artist, or at least a better one. no one becomes an artist escept out of necessity. I see people in lines, paint again this summer?Maybe, class? Who knows. Not CHEM 3a. Do i want to do science? What do i want to do? FUture. ahhhhhh real monsters. haha. Where's Whitney? shes got five minutes. Champagne Supernova. mmm. I wonder what that would look like? Maybe like new years on steriods. Ohh is that GOrdo? Gotta tell GIna. Flora. GOddamnit/ Stuff was so good. VInce is an asshole. Stop liking stupid person. really have to stop doing that. GOt nothin. History. Shit reading. Must do reading. Must must must. Too many units? Compact well muscled, Jake. the circus folk. ahah. Baked Potatoes. So many people I dont know. WOw Theres RENOIR! damn i wish i had a brush. damn.
:: kate 12:48 PM [+] ::
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i miss home so much now. its safety. everything sheltered, everything easy. where i could fall asleep at eight-thirty if i needed to, i could trust so fucking much. I guess thats what i miss most. TRust
:: kate 9:53 AM [+] ::
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